uh...
2nd dae of cny!!! felt nothin eh!ahhaha...hermm``FINALLY daddy asked jOey IF he wants to go or not and he ans YES...!! yeehaa!!!! hehe..dead happie now!keke
well,juz now went to put petrol for daddy's car.fOr daddy's carwe dun pay cash 1..use a book to write then every month daddy'l pay up or sth lidat la.then i didnt know is ONLY the dusun muda's petronas eh..so i went to sultanah zainab's petronas..then,when i give the resit,the man was like :"er...u tunggu jap eh?gi tanyo betar" then..i know nth eh so i waited for him lo.afta a while he came out and say :" eh,ni hok dusun muda lah buke hok c-ni..tok leh guno" and i was like.....shit damn "tuuuuutttttttttt" blah..so emberasing weih!! thankgoodness my purse hav money..else dunno how d.came back i told daddy...and he laughed at me like hell..he say :" huh? i didnt know u dunno..u dun realize i alw go to THAT petronas oni meh?" ahh...i say i didnt realize.! arghhhh..geram geram..damn !! daddy stil laugh at me?so bad!!! sigh..haha
haiyo..haha..hmmmmm freaking miss u!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!cant wait to see u!!=p
later goin to leon's hse and cousin's(ching) hse.wanted to go to leon's hse oni coz lazy to go here and there as i HAVE to go alone to ching's hse.joey,mommy and daddy all lazie while ching msged me n ask me to go wor...how to reject HER??hah..too bad lah.sigh... but i dunno the way shit! HOPE i wont get lost lah.hehehe...

bahaha..HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR ppl!

booh..tired tired..went to 6hse...i mean,for thier Open Hse!! gOsh~tired me!!seriously its tiring!!blah~the laz hse is hangie's hse..then went to kbmal wit ren,zhe,qi and luan..(hah,,imagine--cny go kbmal) not many shops open tho and its bored.moz of them are malayz!!

saw a tasmanian devil..its kinda big la ... gOsh,blardie xpensive!!RM99.90.ah chiuuu..* then,walk walk ard talkin.afta a while zhe and ren say wanna go A & W for drink..so,we went ther and drink and eat some snackz.heh...pathetic!! cny BUT dun seem like cny! bored bored!

4 more days!! 4 more days and am goin to ........ keke (waitin for the =p)

well well well nothing special i guess....

curled ma hair y'day~and i looked OLD!! blah...so sad!heheh..but then some say not bad -- mature..some say dun suite me!! sigh..speechless..

now my hair back to normal d..=) natural is stil the best! hiakhiak! hehe..

tmr goin to cousin's hse and leon's hse---at nite BUT afternoon goin to mom frien's hse ...

tonite MIGHT go out wit thing,win,ben,qi...? not sure yet..

ahh...lazie to post d.haha.t o b e c o n t i n u e``

yeeeehaa~
am back hOmE!!! Flight delayed from 820pm to 0915pm.but then ended up moving at 0930pm!!! BUT we arrived ard 10.15/20pm ... kinda faz!heh.
ren called me when am in KLIA. I HEARD he said he dropped ah-eng(nicole) at the airport--same flight as mine..and i was like so xcited coz long time no see her..asked ren to call her meet me up at mcD...after a while,saw ah-heng(GANS) and teck liang!! and i was like...wtf? tot is ah-eng?gOsh,,then oni i realize i heard wrongly!! bahaha...mcD tOo nOiSy alr!! blah! stupeed..
talk cock wit them both like hell..esp teck liang.blah..he aso studyin AUP in inti SUBANG..so,got a lil topic lor.
i reached KLIA b4 7 while my flight is at 9.15(the delayed time) lepak in mcD from 7.30-->8.45pm~ i had 3 medium cup of coke..(free refill) ahhh...was dead borinz!
hah...BUT wasnt that BORED wit phone call and msg =p..thx deaR~(muahaha)
hurmm,,reached hOme,shOwed mOm ma shoe..and she's like.. "oh,no wonder la no money d.hahah..like tat aso nice mer?how much is it??" haha..
then daddy aso "haaaaaaaaa..u ah~smart smart!! no wonder so faz no money!! hehe"
tOld them the price and gave them an evil grin!keke..
joey got his new phone--w800i.mom was saying both of us in the car--i mean say to daddy..said that sis spoilt us! get joey a new phone and get me a mp3 player! and i say back "wa...NOT ipod aso u can curi laugh ad lo" hah..
so wish is ipod BUT then get mp3 aso....ok lah~hahaha..can record voice as well. but its like 1 G oni...nvm nvm--satisfied!! blah~ahhaha
oh,didnt really sleep.slept at 5.30AM and woke up at 8sth! joey woke me up to send him to tuition!! sigh..now so awake..cant sleep ad lor.later 10am have to fetch him AGAIN hah..lazie me...afta 4/5 weeks didnt drive so kekok!!
oh~kn0w what?i received 2 cny card! muahaha..so surprise..never tot that i'll recieve any!coz didnt play this kinda things ady mar.laz time used to give to friends and receive now,i receive .. both frm my NS friend--not bad eh?they actually remember me!hahahah..

:: h a p p y C h i n e s e N e w Y e a R ::

went to mid today yesterday wit gee ..
changed mom's pants..thankgod that sales gal stil remember me!wahaha..she's nice tho ``
and saw an kinda old lady was shopping.she wear .. how to say ah..aiyo..wil upload the pic asap..dunno wth happen to my bluetooth device tho.wah..she's so "yeng" gosh~1st time see this kinda old lady dress lidat!hiakhiak..cool cool and i in time to took her pic!hahaha...gee and i acted stupeedly~hahahaha but was darn farnie la coz took pic..mujur she didnt realize else she'l kick me / screw me up!blek
then,went look ard for mom the clothes she wan BUT so sad dun have.tOo bAd'' hmmph,,then went to zara!!haha..and i get the half jacket--white colour.wah...i really get it weih!hah..coz mOm allows she say IF really like then buy!wahaaa...damn hapi!
went for movie as well watched moonlight i tokyo..er``was OK la..its farnie.hmmm..not like what i xpected ..
we had sushi!! haha,,yummiee!!! oh,damn bloodie stupeed ei tat gal.this is the 2nd time alr she counted wrongly! suppose to be 40+ but ended up rm33 niah~ think she colour blind eh..the moz xpensive(pruple)wan she didnt write..wahahah..gee and i was like..wth?faster go pay up..the 1st time was wit rOger..if not mistaken is aso this gal.she didnt write down the purple one..gosh~hahaha..(that was like laz year or sth)
bahahaah...bodosh bodosh!(opss)
waaaaaaaaaa,,tmr goin back ady!cny is like so soon...where's my mood??im juz waitin for 2nd of feb! =p

whow!!
its0633am now!! and im stil awake..okay,i didnt sleep at all the whole nite! damn``
cant sleep the whole nite.SWEAR i think NOTHING..i mean i wasnt thinkin of anythin..i juz cant sleep sigh''
now waiting for 0700am to go shower and straight to class..booh``wth!! didnt sleep for da whole nite..altho today's class til 12pm only but still...im going to midv ler.arghh``wtf!!! i admit,at 1st i cant stop thinking bout that freaking emily rose(the part where she was sleepin wit her bf then suddenly found her on the floor)euuuuu...geli weih!..then,afta a while was ok BUT i didn feel sleepy at all !not at all...seriously!!!oh no''my insomnia is back? sob..i dunwan lidat.its freaking suffering eh~damn pissed wana sleep but cant sleep..*yawn
hmmph'' bloodie fool..damn damn damn!!aaaahhhhhhhhhh...

wohhooo...juz now receive a phone call frm mummy!! haha *heppie
she called to say that we're going to trml this 2nd of feb and ask if I wanna go or not.and i was like..."uh,ok la..im ok wit it..." think she muz b kinda surprise to hear that tho coz normally i'll say "har??go there for what..such a borink place..dunwan la" haha..this tym i say anythin~
go on 2nd come back on 4th,5th balik kl...wah,so pack!omg..my clothes,,how?shit!! hav to wash in inti~hah..blah!no choice!
tot cny cant meet up wit em d..wahaha...

uh...juz now raelyn kenak me! i went toilet,then purposely didnt close my door tightly . when i came out,talk wit her and xian...afta a while wanna go back room lor.who knows my door is lock and i was like--wtf!! then she say "oh lyne,sorry juz now i tot u brought ur key out then locked for u"... was so geram n asked her to acc me go to the guard ask them to open my door lor.afta a while,she took out ma key ... and i was like...shit "tuttt" her..hahaha...
blooddiiee POOL lah prank me!sigh...keep on kao pe her like hell.hahaha...
went to klia wit damien and chee how to send seghee and wenhao..then had dinner in burger king..

today goin to midv AGAIN!!sigh..this is my 2nd time for this week.goin for movie wit gee again too..hehe.moz prob watchin moonlight in tokyo i think its a comedy la.wanted to watch geisha but then the duration too long d.lazie lah coz its NOT weekend mar.tmr's ticket shud b half price~coz wednesday!
for this month,went to midv for,sth like4/5times ady eh..gosh!!! kinda bored wit it d.haha.. after cny MIGHT go ther again --HOPEFULLy la can go for hair cut!hehehe..
blah``shit shit...thx nic,thx 2 u i cant sleep!sigh..
say somemore abt emily rose!!say ... make me cannot sleep..arghh`` then,the way he say the 1,2,3,4,5,6 is like so...similar..sigh!arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh...babi lah u!

hurmm..went for tennis t0dae``was ok la..normal tho.
uh``today's class was bored like hell!sigh~moz of the class made me feel like sleepin!hiakhiak.but then laz nite i slept earlie eh..ard 1sth if am not mistaken``but stil dead tired.i THINK i know why~hah..
well,met ryan today~took the mom's pants frm him.he was wit vincent that tym.er...suppose to b like only one plastic bag BUT he handed me 2--one paper bag.
after giving me he terus cabut..din even have the tym to say anythin..like rushing to railway station tht type
have a look at the paper bag and it was a roxy purse and a cute key chain .. he bought for me in ausie..i was so surprisE2receive it!!! g0sh~
hmmph,,shud i use it??arghh..i really dunn0 lah~tot of givin back but as i know hi style he will not take back 1..
hmmph~need to study n0w..

juz received a msg from nic.said that mum told aunty kelly that nic smoked at our place and in thai!sigh...`` wtf!! why of al she did that?!(disappointed,anger,worry,geram,pissed!!!)
shit fack...surely u kena badly from parents?!am sorrie nic!!!didnt know this wil happen!so so sorriee!! gosh!! (stil wondering who told mum that u smoked in thailand trip) arghh......*feel bad*
hmmph``surely ure so freaking pissed now!think that call really spoilt ur mood huh!aaaaaaaaaaa...dunno what can i say bsides SORRY!

uh..went to midv juz now to watch movie wit kelvin and gee..watched the shopaholic damn stupid show!farnie i guess..then went walk ard...oh!!b4 went for movie..guess what!!! I SAW HANGIE!!!!!!!omfg!! never tot tat wil met her there!! she was wit yian.so blooddiiee surprise to saw her there!!talked a while then i went for movie!
bought one t-shirt in hang ten and one spaghetti..afta that went to zara..wanted to find my half jacket i saw laz weekend wit chin BUT no more d!! darn!!! then saw another one which is RM65.90...now thinking to get or not to get!sigh~damn xpensive..then saw BUM de..RM99--jeans de..i like that BUM 1 since in KB la..but then dead xpensive so for sure i wont get that!!hmmph``speechless lah.damn.regretted for not buying that laz week!arghhh....
blah..
so tired now..!!

uh-oh~
the time now is 0949am!!!and i slept at 5.30/6am!!!omfg!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!cant blive i weih!i act slept for abt 4 hrs only! really gotta thank my dearest mummy``hah!woke me up at 8sth9am..she called me and tell me tat she's goina pass her pants which i bought for her to ryan as he'l b comin down to NILAI tmr!!she need me to help her change the pants as she acnt wear it!need to change size``argh....hopefully e'thing will be alrite lah.Today(later) going to midv,then HAVE TO go AGAIN f0r mummy to change the pants for her nx few days~g0sh!!hmmph afta receiving her phone calls i cant sleep back ady altho am so tired!
oh so happy!!mummy act asked i left how much and i answered RM300+ RM400++ .. so scariee..tot she'l screw me up mana tau~she say. "uh..really?hmmm,tmr only i bank in for u k?since u can only drw out RM200 once" and i was like wtf??she didnt even scold/screw me up eh~hahahahah...(phew) mayb coz she knows i bought shoes and all kua~hahaha...happy a while.tot i cant spend ady..haha..i know why she wanna bank in for me!! coz she stil need me to help her buy few more blouse!! pathetic mummy no new year clothes! plus jie and i alw steal took her shirt de.hahaha...(opss...) =p 'nottie me' ahhhaa``
uh..nic might get one 012 then throw his 016.or maybe use 3 phones?uh..so many phones for what eh?i use 2 phones aso think its troublesome!hmmph~he w0rrie my phone bil 'll b high so tot of getting a 012 so its cheaper for me to send msg or call`` so good huh? b l u e k z =p i thank u 1st! =)

laz nite,went out dinner wit kelvin and gee.kelvin brought us to KFC!!hahaha..afta so long didnt eat KFC todae we went!!hah..then, 2mrw goin 2 midv for movie!! wanted to watch geisha but then gee and kelvin scare'l b bored so goina watch the shopaholic~
arghh...dead bored now!slept at 7am laz nite!haha siao not?gee and i watch drama til 7!! gosh~since i come inti this is the 1st time i really rush to finish a drama!!laz 2 sem for me to finish a drama takes like almoz a week or sth...now,2/3days can finish d lor..hah~damn siao! mayb nowadays i spend more time wit gee than my friends lah.then didnt go yum char wit friends d.normally wil go yum char or go out wit friends de!!hehe..
aiyoo...
juz now chatted wit chin~she told me that she cant go bck kb this cny!so sad!!! tot can hav fun 2getha who knows``sigh..nvm chin!afta cny we go hang kai in sg wang k!since u kena ffk!!hahaha..pathetic chin~hiakhiak! (see this kinda GOOD FRIEND where to find ah?) =p
hmmmm...6 days ady lo``haha..everything seemed fine so far~=) and im sure things will be even much better !!

fuh...yesterday finally went for jogging!! hiakhiak~
supp0se2go for basketball...dunno who's idea lah suddenly roger told me that 6pm meet up at bustop.said that johann asked so.blah~went there,suddenly kelvin say "oh...johann not coming" walao!! kek sei me! so ended up jogging..6 of us togetha(kelvin,eugene,roger,nuri,gee and me!!) 1st time jog in a gang weih~hahaha..stupid! then at nite johann gave us supper at al-salam``had tomyam..freaking spicy weih! all who tasted was like..wah!! damn spicy!gosh!!cant blive that am stil able to finish it!haha..
hmmmm,,tonite goin to pasar malam wit gee and kelvin!!hehe...so long ady didnt go there.freaking miss the food weih!
hmmmmmmmmm....GAN YEW CHIN!!u wanna kena from me ah?
yesterday kena ffk twice!! one is uchin one is coach! haha.. darn!! what a dae !
chin..u ahh...u wait la u``haha..u pay half for my hair cut then.hiakhiak~ blah..jk lah. am not so ''small gas'' wan..dun worrie..keke..as long as u acc me ;)
laz nite cant sleep AGAIN..fall asleep ard 5sth 6am like that. then b4 3am,nic sent a msg sth to do wit emily rose !! lagilah cannot sleep..keep on thinkin bout it!gosh~scariee!!! thanks to u lah! arghh....then,woke up few times to beat nyamuk(s)..keep on sucking my blood!sigh..then in the middle of the nite flu pulak! aduhai...so many problem wan ...

hmmph...
yesterday went for tennis!!! woohoo..played wit joanna--adam's sister..not bad.played tie-break wit her.wahh...she's stil good lah!really..nice to sroke wit her..after so long didnt play didnt know i stil have few passing shorts..hahha..notbad~(blueks)
uh...yesterday went for chem lab..was not bad.did some experiments..was fun!!hahaha then,i alw love lab coz can go back once we've done.as we dun have o pass up our lab report in class~went back,took a nap then wanted to sleep til 1245 but i overslept til...1420!!my class is 1400!!! haha darn! if aunty pat/elaine didnt call dun think i'll wake up!sigh~missed the class but went today~change section.plus i prefer this class tho less ppl nicer!!=)
AHAHA..damn funny--y'day kelvin said that gee woon looks like me.then i said she's my sis..at 1st he was like..."har...really not?" then i say say...he really blive.then followed by eugene and another kevin..wahahhaah..freaking funny.gee woon and i cant stop laughing.altho we used to do this but stil we found out stupid funny~hahaha..(opss...)
then,han chuen aso tot its real!aiyooo..dun feel bad for it!!hahahaha...
cant wait til after cny!! cant wait for hair cut eh!hahaha..
gan yew chin and nicholas lau!!! better not break promise ah...go for hair cut togetha!hahahha...looking forward !! =p
haih~its 0233am and am stil awake?arent i suppose to be sleeping right now?hmmph~geramnyer!!! why alw cannot sleep...
thankgoodness tmr's class is at 1600 so dun have to wake up so earlie...(phew)
i think need to do something uesfull now---STUDY!!!hahaha...and i mean it weih!
blah...

.....wtf?i cant sleep AGAIN! been few days already like that.since in cheras.
why cant i sleep why?its like damn suffering eh cant sleep.I WANNA SLEEP!!but i cant..damm babiee..hate myself for this loads!
sorrie nic made u worry!dun mean it but i juz cant sleep.how u scold or blame me is like so usless!!no matter how i forced myself to sleep,i juz cant! arghhhh...
slept at 12sth.b4 1am..but was awake by 2sth am...then,nic called and asked why n all til3sth bfore 4am then tried to sleep but i juz cant ... i dont know why! i wasnt thinking of anythin BUT i juz cant sleep!! really nth was on my mind!!shit 'tuutttt' this freaking feelings! get bitten by mosquetooooooooooooo..my hand and leg...sigh!! then woke up beat that freaking nyamuk!!so itchy now!!! mayb thats why cant sleep..(heh stupid reason!)
later hav class suppose to be 8-10,10-12 ONLY but then im goin for csc 12-2 so tmr i dun have to wake up early and hav one class lor.6hrs combo class tmr..after class am goina SLEEP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!like a pig! (hopefully)
uh...its raining out there wit thunder..but its NOT cold at all...freaking hot got lah.sigh
blah....starting to crap d.....lalala....

:: JuSt FoR y0u ::

^^LoVe iS wAt u gAiN
E'thInG bSiDe u iS wAt u HaVe..
But NEVER ever tRuSt 0n iT.
As u kn0w,
PpL seEk f0R m0rE tHaN tHaT...
U're s0me0ne wh0's m0rE thAn tHaT,
U're s0me0ne who's BetTeR tHaN thAt,
BUT...
U're s0me0ne who's GREATER thAn whAt u ArE!!
AbiLity 0F uRs wiLL alWeZ kn0Wn aS uR pLaN
bUt uR pLaCe iN thIs 0utSiDe w0rLd'll bE g0nE..
AnD 0nCe u'll hAppEn t0 kn0w......
ThAt u're s0meThInG eLsE.
U seEk iT uRseLf,
U c0nquRe uRseLf....
ThAt wiLL leAd u t0 bec0mE sTr0nGer.
NeVerTheLesS,tHinK 0F iT,
AnD u'll tuRn 0uT t0 Be XceLLeNt !!! ^^

-- i l o v e y 0 u m y d e a r --

16 JAN,2006 can b the memorable day?

lurve is like wind.u can feel it,but cant see it...

blah!@! todae is the special-iest dae in ma life!!hiakhiak!!! waaaaaaaaaa,,
will NEVER forget 16 JAN,2006 !!! there's alw a place for U in ma heart~^-^
excited!!happie!!
feel like shouting out loud..to tell the whole world how HAPPY am i now!! =) even words aso cant describe how happie am i !!!

::this song is dedicated to u ::
I would give up everything
Before I'd separate myself from you
After so much suffering
I finally found unvarnished truth
I was all by myself for the longest time
So cold inside and the hurt from the heartache
Would not subside I felt like dying,Until you save my life.

Thank God I found, I was lost without you
My every wish and every dream Somehow became reality
When you brought the sunlight
Completed my whole life I'm overwhelmed with gratitude
My baby I'm so thankful I found you
I will give you everything
There's nothing in this world I wouldn't do
To insure your happiness I cherish every part of you '
Cause without you beside me
I can't survive don't want to try
If you're keeping me warm
Each and every night I'll be alrightBecause I need you in my life

See I was so desolate
Before you came to me
Looking back I guess
It shows that we were
Destined to shine after rine,
To appreciate the gift of what we have
And I'd go through it all over again
To be able to feel this way

greatest weekend for 2006 !! =)

whow!! its a great weekend for me!!
like....i went cheras on fri and stayed in gee's hse ~ sat went midvalley meet up wit uchin and carlene .. gee came along. bought a shirt in ::dorothy perkins:: wanted to buy a shirt in ::zara:: coz its not THAT xpensive ma..i mean for that brand lah BUT didnt coz not suitable.mujur i tried! but i quite like!hmmmm...think thats the only thing i bought in midv..oh!! bought shirt for mum!!!she asked me to buy for her.find and find..finally found in metrojaya!^-^
had a great time wit chin,carlene and gee tooall gila2 wan..sgh..keep on laughing oni!!keke..1st time shop wit her in kl! hehe....
after cny hair cut gal!=P a cut above weih!! boleh la!! ahhahaha!!!

sunday went to time sqaure!!! went wit gee to meet leon but im there to meet nic.. at 1st lepak ard wit leon n gee...shop shop..bought a pants for myself and a t-shirt for joey!! hope he'l like i lah.else i'll take it!!hiakhiak~hahaha..cant find pants for him!shit!goina get kill by him^
afta a while nic called me n i go n find him~we walked the whole timesquare gong! haha..siao~coz nowhere to go.i mean,timesquare is like godamnbig BUT we actually finished walking it in like how many hrs.gosh! hahaha..but,i really had fun lor altho juz walk walk~then,we went starbucks for drink and talktalk~
oh ya..we went in the ::wet wet::shop i think is ''wet wet'' lah.its smth like ::i need hse:: but then "i need house" cooler!! hahaha...this "wet wet" is smaller n not as many things as "i need house" cant find it!!
afta that qi came wit win to meet me! they were wit surinder them al de .. then,win acc her to t.square find me lerh.then nic went back afta a while the came.sigh*
afta t.square...went bac cheras.act nic offered to send me back wit his family but i dunwan.coz 1.troublesome 2.gee'l b alone takin train..worry*
had dinner at gee's hse(her mom cooked..nice food!!!) then take ktm to serdang--han chuen fetched me at serdang then went the mines a while/...afta that sent me back!!
ahh...i really enjoyed myself in tsquare!! =) so so so fun!hahahaha..blueks! dun fly ah...keke
but,seriously thanks ya acc me walk walk.keke
looking forward for the nex time yeah~^-^

ahhhhhhhhhhhh..wtf!!
this morning 2/3am til 6/7am keep on vomiting..sigh.cant sleep well at all..sleep then,wanna vomit..vomit,wanna cont sleep but cant...then vomit again! shit....think i vomited ard 4-5 times...plus 3 times of diarrhoea!!dunno is bcoz of gastric or food poisoning!arghh!!suffering weih!
juz now class ... almoz skip eh but i went..dunno why i went aso ... aso damn suffering when am in the class..so dizzy,stomache,feel like puking... ... sigh!
then....afta clas wwent for tennis club meeting~joanna(ADAM JAYA'S sis) is here too! so surprise....that she actually stil remember me! hahahaha...she was like "i can remember U"(pointing me).ehhe..then talk talk wit her a while.
ahh...fcuk the food made me suffer! darn!
uh....tmr goin to KL again..go stay wit gee woon in cheras.saturday might b meeting up wit chin at midv..then sunday meeting leon...and MAYBE nic? MAYBE..stil cant comfirm..hope so lah.haha
mmmm....

sorry my friend,made u guys worry!!!

it's like..everyone saw me...then asked: 'what happen to you pauline?looked like wanna die that type..sigh....looked so down...omfg!!!"hhaha..
dun worry ppl..am ok!!!

ahhh...m lazie!

uh...today FINALLY i went to class.bored US HIS2!! bored like hell!! damn!!!dunno wtf she talkin abt aso..then,my maths lec change??wtf?!duh...dun like this lec...stil prefer CHAI POH KEONG altho he's old,he likes to bebel..BUT stil better than this!! arghh``but chem was ok....dunno why i felt so nice in that class~hmmmm..cool! haaha
didnt know i'll enjoy chem !! try drop US HIS2...dun care!ahhhh....hell men this is hell!!! duh!
ah ah...hmmmm,,holiday's over!!!time to study weih!no more fooling ard! omfg...
this morn i almoz skip class..my eyes was so damn red eh!hmmm...like kena infection that type..gosh!! scary... til chee how saw me aso ask..what happen..peep guys ah?haha...hmmmmm,,didnt realize inti was boring!! haha.. hell bored..not as fun as b4 ady ler sigh..
well well well, this friday going down kl wit gee woon..nic say he's comin to kl!!! BUT dunno have da chance2meet up n0t..hmmm``hopefully.....heh
he's funny weih!aiy0o..cant stop laughing whenever i talk wit him.The way we talk n msg is like as if we knew each other for years eh..dunno why lidat~hmmmmmm,,but,he's a nice guy..=) -->im praising u nic,DUN 'FLY' ah~hahahahah< (cough)
aih~juz now joey called me...say he's in kl for tournament BUT...he didnt play yet w/o d...so sad..that cikgu didnt know he was in the quallifying round..so tot his match is tmr...mana tau is today...omfg!! he sat 10hrs bus here for nth?! he's pissed la i know..asked me if can go bring him somewhere else not..he juz dun wanna b there..how i wish am ther wit him now..can comfort him.so sad!!! if tmr friday ok la..i sure can go n find him d..BUT its not...have class and meeting somemore.sigh...
.................................................. im so tired!! tired of everything eh... dunno why feel like that!!WITHOUT U,my life'l b meaningless!!!without U,i wont b so happy n0w...thanks!!!altho we're wtil friends but i really appreciate having u...!! muackz~
u know who u are rite

im back to coll d!!! woohooo~dead tired now...laz nite slept at 6sth then woke up 11sth!! went to sunway pyramid todae.uh...FINALLY i bought me a nike shoe..supp0se2buy the one i saw y'day BUT so happen todae saw a nicer one..wah.....damn eppie!keke..n i bought the roxy purse too..hiakhiak! haha..THANKS SIS .. else dun think i'll buy! muahahah,,
eas eyeing for sports shop only juz now..walked in EVERY shports shop! hahaha..STUDIO R,ADIDAS,CONVERSE,blah....then tot of giving up d..mana tau..when i wanna go ATM...saw a nike shop...peh....i 'FLY' in the shop n see....uh~new arrival but the price is stil ok!! muaks...damn eppie weih!ahahaha..but i really spent a lot la this few days...gosh..!! canot spend d...EAT GRASS lah for one week..hahhaa...
oh...dunno why this few days no appetite to eat..NOT HUNGRY AT ALL even if didnt eat!! omfg!! damn eppie eh BUT its weird ler..SEE,juz now had lunch til now stil freaking full!!mmmm,,,weird me!well,zhe joined us for shopping today~tot he'l bring is GF to intro to us..mana tau came alone..sigh.heh..
laz nite met up wit wei wen,wei ye,wei jun them all..whole gang... yum char,then afta that they went for GAME ... afta fame wen and ye came RENNY's hse to chit chat v me..they're damn dunny..qi didnt join us for talk coz she's sleepin..haha..
aih~so tired now..2mrw its time to get back to study d..NO MORE PLAYING..but then nex week going to meet up wi leon la..AND HOPE that someone wil too come down.hehe...come nah!!heheheheh..ask ur mom to be free...and i'll aso b free for u=)
so..nx week might stay wit gee woon,....maybe wil meet up wit uchin,and hopefully qi lo...
mmmmmmmmmm..gtg n decorate that freaking tennis club's board...sigh.dead tired n lazy eh.wish i can sleep now!


oh...my love!!--freaking love u!muaxx

nike or adidas...ROXY STIL RAWKS!

finally,hangie is wit me..finally had the chance to go shopping wit her..
well,went to sg wang todae..bought a jeans , a skirt and a 'shirt'(i dunno why i put " )...mmm..saw a nike shoe n was thinking 'shud i get?' BUT...i didnt.sigh~ juz now chatted v sis..she said i SHUD buy the purse and the nike shoe if i really like.else i'll regret n IF wait til go back only tell mom,its TOO LATE to go back n get it..hmmm,,(true true)..2mrw if i sees those...i'll get..hahahaha..dun care d..buy d only regret..HA-HA-HA..i wan the adidas one but its RM200++ eh...but nike is like....RM187 or smth cant really remember~heh..
haiyooo....shudnt have go shopping..makes me spent even more..hahaha...so bad.sis goina get mum a LV!!omfg!! damn rich huh she?hmmph...get me the fcuk la since so rich.hahahah..oh no..IPOD! ahahha...damn!she get me a mp3 player which is 1G..and she say its damn expensive!! hmmm,,so sad~she promised me an ipod BUT turned out to b mp3..kke..ahh,whatever..as long as i have one! hahaha...
im like so craziee d now.hahahahaha...siao siao 1
oh..juz now nic called...talked to aunty kelly..aiyoo.c.ant stop laughing at her.she's kinda drunk i think then told me she's happy coz 2mrw is sunday--dun have to work..bla bla bla.haha...so cute!! hehe...
the 1st thing she said is :"hello...im nic's mom..who's there?? ...... pauline ah?" omfg!! i was like...wtf?? scare me out eii..hahaha..
then,mmmm...promised SOMEONE that i WONT think abt the past d..mmmm,,dun worrie ok!its like....i really wont think and i mean it..OK? a promise is a promise =) as long as ure eppie~
and U..aso DUN think SO much..u're a .... think freak-er..ahhaa..really LOVE to think huh?? think of me aso better than simply think ler~=p
hmmmmmmmmmmmmm...tmr goin to sunway piramid i guess...coz qi say she wanna go there as she didnt go there yet so far.hmnmm,,so..its ok for me so...moz prob go there lorh.since midvalley i can go anytime..--the nearest to my place~
arghh..so laziee..tmr stil have to go n decorate that freaking tennis club board..hmmmph``then for a week muz JAGA COUNTER...i mean take turn la..i think for mine is one day only..ahha but then its freaking bored la ...imagine,muz site there looking ppl passing by .. ppl askin all sort of ques..sigh~
wahahhaa...''everyday i love u more n more''--shud ask kaiser chiefs to change his lyrics eh..hahaha..
mmm..blah```

hurmm``
life aint good ... life sux!! its alr 3 days...BUT things aint going well.never in my life i face this!! inilah LIFE..ahhhh.............................. im so sorry ppl... sorry for bringing up this freaking pr0blem to u guys!! without ME,this thing wont happen...isnt it?! aihh..SORRY k!!
think..... i really need to think what ive done wrong and make sure this SHIT wont happen AGAIN!!!
i really need a better life!! who can gimme a better life?!a trust from pers0n,a TRUE LOVE!!! (no more playing PLEASE.....)--its enuf..im no longer a small kid..so,its time to b serious in whatever things i do!!
think tru this prob,im "GROWING UP" eh.(burp) hahahah,,gosh``
life is getting tougher,studies is getting tougher,EVERYTHING is getting tougher !! hmmmm.... i shud have listen to mummy earlier..SHUD HAVE..too bad,its late..BUT at least i learn frm ma mistake..

oh...so eppie,2mrw meeting qi!!! waaaaaaaaaa..so eppie,,so many things to talk abt``shop wit her in KL --1st time eh~hahaa...been looking forward badly for thiS! ahha..finally OUR dreams come true..keke.
then go for JAPANESE fooD!! yeehaaaa...huhu,, tot of kim gary aso eh..omfg!! all the nice food..hahah..hopefully have the freaking appetite to eat la..else i wont eat d...today had lunch oni..mcd burger..and coffee bean's vanila ice blended...(yummiee) hahha...i dun go for coffee BUT go for the pure vanila ice blended...haha..weird me!
uh!! i saw a swatch today in KLCC!! omfg!!!!!!!!! damn nice eh!! its like...i was looking ard the thsi watch attract me..i fu*ckng love it eh! aaaaaaaaaaaaaa..damn nice weih! its RM 259 eh!!waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa..shit shit!!its the olympic dunno what swatch la BUT damn freaking nice eh! yier....if i really have the money i would have bought it.haha TOO BAD~and then wanted to buy roxy purse..but stil thinking if i shud or not..its RM89 ler..aih~dunno dunno shud i buy or not!!!一见钟情wit that freaking watch.wakao!!! look so arrogan~ hahaha...cant stop thinking abt it..
BUT I REALLY WAN THE SWATCH!! woohhoo..shit!! that watch damn cool eh!!uhhh...yier!!!ah,shit..im in love...ahhahaa...
i think am goin crazy...insane....omfg!!aiihhh~apa nak buat...apa bley saya buat to make things better?!
no matter how many SORRIE(S) i say to U seemed useless...as the scar wil stil b there.aih~

fu*k iT....

See I don't know why I liked you so much

I gave you all of my trust

I told you I loved you now that's all down the drain

You put me through the pain,

I wanna let you know how I feel

Fuck what I said, it dont mean shit now

Fuck the presents might as well throw em out

Fuck all those kisses, it didnt mean jack

Fuck you, you hoe, I dont want you back

You thought, you could

Keep this shit from me, yeah

You burned bitch, I heard the story

You played me, you even gave him head

Now you're askin for me back

You're just another jack, look elsewhere

Cuz you're done with me

yeah You questioned,

did i care

You could ask anyone,

I even said You were my great one

Now it's over, but I do admit

I'm sad It hurt real bad,

I cant sweat that, 'cuz I loved a hoe

omfg!!!
what a time to pass...darn! hate today!! hate til the max!! never in my life i get scolding frm a guy til like that! arghhhhh....
haih~ maybe thats just my fault .. thats why he's so mad at me. if i would have know this wil happen, i wouldnt have let this to start!! omfg!!!!! but,what can i do...even if i dun wan this to happen,it happened... i know, no matter how many sorries i say aso useless d but,why muz u see things at the dark side?? cant u look at the bright side?! arghh.... b4 this u said d that if anything just say...we may share and say out the truth BUT, everything seemed so diff!!! its like u cant even accept it! omfg!!!haih~ seriously u made me dunno what is right and wrong...
im like so lost!! darn!! thanks to u, ive learn h0w 2 珍惜身边的人!!im NOT goina repeat the same mistake AGAIN!! never.. say whatever shit u wan to da whole freakin world as i dun give a shit as well.. mayb i shud b eppie that everythin's over now.. i have my own freedom to do whatever i wan...freedom is what im asking!!!
ahh....cut this crap off!!!
hmm..THX nic,,u accompanied me frm the start til NOW..wah``its like...i dunno if ure tired n0t..keep on askin u to bed but u juz dun wan,....seriously thanks!!! without u..think now i'll b crying all day long til fall asleep...or maybe自暴自弃 d!!
hmmmmmmmmmmm....went to surin's hse eh juz now..1st time went there..played CS for like 2 rounds then gave up..dunno wtf am playin aso..haha then he sontinued for me..
uh uh....hate myself!!!hate myself for everything ive done!!im loz in thought for a while juz now..but now,am feeling much much better i HOPE..=p
oh....juz n0w i went for tennis club meeting as0 eh..omfg!! i hate being secretary weih!! darn!! have to do th0se freakin reports,,sigh!!
after so long didnt meet kelvin,ashley,roger,eugene,nuri and coach..juz now met them all..hmmm..what shud i say?? its like kinda kekok..but that bugger bloddieee roger ong tee-yeong(si burung tiung) ... the 1st thng he saw me is like-- hey 'fei po'..babi la him...so sad when i heard that..ITS TIME FOR ME TO DIET!!!
hhaha

:: so sweet ::

:: What IF we had never met..?
What would I be d0in..?
What kind of life would I have..?
I often think about these things..
And I always come to the same conclusion..
Without you,
I would be an extremely unhappy person..
Living an unhappy life…
I know that we met for a reason
And that reason was that –
You and I were meant to be
In love with each other..
You and I were meant to be
A team giving us strength..
To function happily in the world
I am so thankful that things turn out the way they did
AND we were brought together (I wish)
You are my world,
You are my LOVE!! ( I h0pe) ::


--Once in a lifetime,
You find someone…
Who touches not only your heart,
BUT also ur soul..
Once in a lifetime,
You discovered someone…
Who stands beside you NOT over you..
You find someone…..
Who love you for who you are and what you are..
NOT for who you could be…
Once in a lifetime,
You’re so lucky that you find someone…
As I wish I found you… ?? --

wtf?!

Without realizing…its ONLY 3 days am back at coll BUT it seemed like am here for like a week or s0mething``
this few nites I couldn’t sleep well at all. All the problems is like haunting me here and there. its like… am lost, lost in a jungle/forest .. I’ve lost ma way out!!! No one will kn0w, feel, realize, and understand what the ‘FISH’ is on my freaking mind`` its like… suddenly everything happened in one shot. Life shud b beautiful but it seems beautiFOOL to me. sigh~
well, everything aint going my way.. life sux. Love sux. Studies sux. Everythin sux til the max!! uh…. Why some ppl juz dun have to face any pr0b n seemed so happy everyday? I tired my very best to b heppie everyday BUT, even if I can lie to others… can I lie to myself?! Hmmph`` I dun feel as comfortable as b4 anymore here.. WHY?! Its like…. I can feel somethings is goina happen. I dunno why I have this kinda feelings AND I dunno how to express this feelings. Just… just dun feel good. Heartbeat is diff!! feelings also diff.. everything diff!! its like asking me to stay away frm sth or sth wil haunt me soon.. gosh!!! Juz hate this kinda fckin feelings!!! Duh…
I need a break!! Dunno what kinda break I need but I dun wan all this freaking feelings!! Ive been thinking loads this few days.. a lot of things am thinking.. studies, my life, my love??, myself.. sometimes, really hate myself for doing some things which I shouldn’t BUT I happened… I have no idea how to stop it frm happening.
Keep on wondering.. if parents dun have pauline this kinda daughter, their life will not b so ....?? I alw made them angry, worry, pissed… … hmmmmmmmmm am juz so bad. Im so adamant, n0ttie, wild, like 2 make them worry, angry , hot tempered, useless, dumb at times, stupid as always… hmmm, maybe they’ll think—WHY OF ALL I HAVE THIS KINDA DAUGHTER..(haha) sad case``
Well, im just ME.. what can I do?! Duh….
Wtf am writing n0w?! omfg!!! (blur) help help help me outa here..

u n w e l l ....

All day staring at the ceiling
Making friends with shadows on my wall
All night hearing voices telling me
That I should get some sleep
Because tomorrow might be good for something Hold on
Feeling like I'm headed for a breakdown
And I don't know why
But I'm not crazy, I'm just a little unwell
I know right now you can't tell
But stay awhile and maybe then you'll see
A different side of meI'm not crazy, I'm just a little impaired
I know right now you don't care
But soon enough you're gonna think of me
And how I used to be...me
I'm talking to myself in public
Dodging glances on the train
And I know, I know they've all been talking about me
I can hear them whisper
And it makes me think there must be something wrong with me
Out of all the hours thinking
Somehow I've lost my mind

being betrayed is so sux!!

omfg!!! cant blive that am back to coll!!!
the 1st pers0n i met is gee woon!! woohhooo,,kinda eppie to see her~
but dunno why am NOT feeling good eh..its like``dunno h0w 2 express my feelings sigh..
well,for this sem break..had loadsa fun act...surprisingly am getting closer wit chin =) i mean like we almost lost contact that type then this sem break we really hang out together haha..she's really a joker!!! hiak hiak*
hmmm....dead bored n0w``
uh....feeling six as well for NOW!! juz now was msgin wit nic n he told me sth which made me like....WTF..haih~ sad sad coz my friend betrayed me!! fcuk her weih! what've i done?! i mean like....i NEVER do anything BUT why must she do this to me!!!simply tok....omfg!!! its hard for me to accept this..
really thankgoodness nic told me or else am a dumb ass who dunno anything n keep on telling her things while she simply tok bout me!! arghh!!!
...i wonder she told how many ppl bout me...and wondering WHY MUST SHE DO THIS!!!
uh!!! damn geram n0w...if i could slap her,i WILL...in even if i can,i'll do it in front of my parents or hers...i dun mind weih...BUT i cant. arghhhhhhhh
pissed off,speechless,disappointed,felt like a dumb,betrayed by someone which is kinda close wit,fckin tention eh now...kao!!! ahhhhhhhhhh...wish i could shout out loud!!!
shud have listen to my friends that she cannot b trusted..whatever...all i can do now is b more beware...she made me realise that DUN TRUST PPL EASILY EVEN IF U'RE CLOSE WIT THEM
well,i juz have to face it..LIFE!!hmmmmm,,so speechless!!
ah !! this morn b4 go to airport,daddy asked me bout my 2nd number..and i was like..oh shit hmmm....then he asked why muz have 2 num?''i said 012 to send msg is like 1 sen only...then he kept quiet n say dun spend so much...phew!!!scariee``
i want my tennis bag!!!!!!!!!!!stupid surinder ... where the hell are u!!hehehe..hmmph``

im so confuse now!!whats my feelings??i juz cant read my mind...all blank!! what is right and what is wrong!! what is good and what is bad?! uh....juz suddenly blank n dunno what shud i do.do i really like / love that person?!i really dunno....am afraid that is juz a sudden feelings.gimme some time to think k!! im sorry......i need a comfirm feelings so that noone get hurts in return!!!

woohoo eppiee new year ppl!!
my new year eve was NOT BAD..count down at ben's hse AGAIN..but then we didnt realliee countd0wn aso la all forgotten muahaha,,stupid US.
well,nic n his friend-liang went back d..stayed here for like 3 days at ma hse.its fun having them here..they're like funniee and craziee..BUT shy..aihh sad case..keke
hmmm suppose to work BUT cant find job and they dun feel comfortable here.hmmm,th0se malays like2stare at ppl(as usual)..then ask ard kbmal noone need partime worker..felt so bad ler cant find them job..like,,pr0mised them wil find them j0b d BUT when they came...no job shit!!felt so bad ler..
think its a boring trip for the both of them as im not a good entertainer and 'tourist guide'.heh sad case ler `` felt so guiltyy!!!
uh....day b4 yesterday nite watched 5 shows non-stop wit nic n liang..liang watched 4 shows oni the laz one he didnt wanna watch..then,laz nite watched 1 half show the 2nd show was freakin borin duno what the hel abt..hehe
watch the 40year old virgin..laugh til ma stomach burst!!freakin funny eh that show!
hmmmmmmmm..really had lotsa fun wit them this few days plus that yew chin!! haha.. think they had lotsa fun wit her more!..she's such a joker a.k.a clown of the day!! ahhaha
tmr goin back to inti d!!felt damn lazie eh altho wanted to go back badly...lazie to study !! stil on hols mood gong!
sob sob.... dunno why feel like cryin..so down today sigh!haih``
arghhh....damn fcukin lazie eh n0w normally i'll pack my stuffs like few days earlier..but this time i packed today!! omfg!! heh.uesless me!!
uhuh...GEE WOON is in INTI n0w!!gosh...dead eppiee eh!!so surprise aso la..somemore stay my block and its like few rooms away frm me!!! yeeehaaa